I was perusing my myspace blog entries and found this gem. It makes me feel good to see that somethings really don't change. These words are as true today as they were a year and 8 crazy months ago.
==================================================================You know, maybe its not so bad.....
As I sit here in my after PRT glow (which I rocked by the way- I did the bike and got the equivalent score to a 13:01 run!! very cool) I find myself feeling Philosophical, Poetic, and Literary, a veritable trifecta of expression, and as usually accompanies these feelings with me, I find myself reflecting. Reflecting on my life as a whole: my marriage, my job, my finances, my plans for the future and most importantly my state of self. More than once over the past year I have found myself in the very pits of despair until I looked around and saw the crack heads, the homeless, the hopeless, and the truly needy which made my clean white shirt look all the more vibrant and I realized even though my collar may not be white, I am flirting with the upper crust of society. My passion for the dramatic lends to its self quite nicely to leaving me in an almost constant state of panic and crisis, but when it all falls down and the smoke clears, every once in a while I take the time to climb up to the top of the mast throw a foot up on the upper yard arm and look around. And this is what I see. I see a 24 year old who probably takes herself way too seriously! But who truly and honestly has passion for what she does. A woman who has lived some serious life in her short time on earth. Been to hell and back and managed to keep herself, her truths, and her foundation, in one piece. The facade may have been through some changes and not all good at that but inside where forever resides, all the corner stones are the same. WORK, LOVE, COMPROMISE, and UNDERSTANDING all centered around GOD, and REMEBERing that every day is what keeps me centered. The perfect day is almost never recognized until it’s over or at least it's that way for me because I don't know for sure if I am going to be able to overcome all the obstacles and emergencies that are going to come my way. I guess mostly I just wanted to say that life is beautiful if you can find it in yourself to look at it in the right light.
